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Diary: 2026-04-19
2026-04-19
Amiya_desi

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Things I plan to do#

  • Draw. Got a drawing tablet, so I can try some regular drawing, then learn about hair theory and stuff. Both pixel art and non-pixel art. Probably over an hour.
  • It’s Sunday today, gotta do homework, emmm, seems like there’s not much, so I’ll just do it.
  • Then edit the video. It’s better to post it than not to, right? And I can try to manage my group, emmm, hehe, at least I got it done.
  • Then play some games, right? Try out new games, maybe stream it. I think I need to learn game design by playing games, emmm.
  • Never mind, played Doki Doki. Achieved all conditions before unlocking the true ending, and got all CGs for everyone in the literature club except Monika in the first playthrough. That was intense, I’ll never forget it. Finished the true ending of the literature club… I probably won’t ever forget it… The localization team are also great people, like a bunch of deities. The game’s author is also a goal for my growth; game design, music, story, and script were all written by him alone, only the characters were drawn by others. Looking at it this way, maybe I should give up art and choose music first, emmm.
  • Finally, open the project as usual, but I don’t plan to put much effort into it today, emmm, a bit tired. Letting the AI handle everything, so they say. I’m just reviewing the AI’s plans. Next week I’ll probably have to look at the code for a bit.
  • Took a shower, hehe, showers are comfy comfy.

Extra Things I Did#

  • Tried registering for another Windsurf account. What a truly generous person, haha. Opus 4.6 is no longer scarce, and I’m using these to continue iterating heavily with AI… But I feel like my control over the project is slipping away QAQ… To be honest, I haven’t even thought through the project itself very well… I can only say that four acts are currently confirmed, but everything else can actually be pending or deleted… So it’s really frustrating. I can only let AI help me think, but what AI comes up with…
  • Watched an analysis of the mating market using game theory. (1) Mating as a status game: Modern mating is essentially a class defense battle. A partner determines future class, assets, and children’s starting line. (2) 1-5 point grading model: 5-point elites control scarce resources (set rules); 3-point average men are well-educated but their stability depreciates; 1/2-point bottom tier lacks risk resistance and is marginalized by the system. (3) Highly educated women absolutely do not “settle down”: 5-point women would rather be a backup for a 5-point man, as he represents a class entry ticket and an opportunity for upward mobility. (4) Depreciation of stability: The mediocre stability offered by 3-point men is powerless against class decline. The perceived dynamic future deters women. (5) 5-point men’s “all-you-can-eat” game fails: Greed leads to high-quality women (savvy investors) collectively withdrawing funds to cut losses, ultimately leaving them with junk stocks. (6) Nash equilibrium: The market ultimately achieves equal matching (5 with 5, 3 with 3), as cross-class pursuits often result in losses. (7) Cost of civilization: Individual rational choices (women not settling down, men “lying flat”) lead to the macro-worst solution—East Asian birth rate collapse, and sexual resources concentrated among a very few. Copied the summary. The video was quite engaging. I’ve started liking these kinds of deep videos lately, hehe.
  • Also watched an analysis of “restarting life in 24 hours,” emmm, by DanKoe. I want to become an open-source contributor and an indie game creator. Currently, for open-source contributions, I really don’t know how to develop software that can help others, which means I need to do demand research. As for indie game development, I’m not doing it for money, but just to convey ideas, and games are the medium I’ve chosen. To make games, I’ve learned how to draw, how to use the latest AI assistance, and maybe in the future, I’ll learn some music and design stuff. **I am someone who will consistently exercise, consistently help and share, showcase my learning, and engage in rational
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# Diary
Last edited 2026-04-19
Diary: 2026-04-19
https://blog.sayori.org/en/posts/diary/2026-04-19/
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Amiya_desi
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2026-04-19
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