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The Creator's Confidence Cycle – Trapped Within It — Let's find a way out!

In the last six hours of GMTK Jam, I cut down the unfinished puzzles and submitted a small game that was actually playable.

It's taken me a while, but I'm finally getting around to summarizing this... While organizing local files, I thought about potential configuration migration issues in the future, so I had AI develop a config migrator or something similar for myself...

I'm doomed, it feels like I won't make the submission deadline. Logically, it's just a normal thing to not finish a jam game on time, but this is *me*! How can *I* be such a failure!!! Damn it...

Went to bed before 1 AM today, around 1:40 AM I think, but still not feeling great, not really good...

This morning I still stayed up until 1 AM, I really can't believe myself. I should go to bed early tonight! Then I'm developing the gmtk project, but in reality, I'm just directing AI. My godot-hub-jam project also feels a bit lost...

Reposted with original author's permission. Using Loupe to demonstrate what mobile apps can read from your device, photo album, and local network, and how ad SDKs piece together device fingerprints.

Didn't get much done yesterday... This morning, I lost control again and slept late, only getting to bed at 2 AM... The only good news this morning was finding my old power bank... Then I spent the whole morning just scrolling through videos, feeling pretty useless... Why am I such a good-for-nothing? Didn't make either of the two videos I planned yesterday... I'm really... fed up. Why am I so useless? Why, why, why, why, why, why?

Reposted with permission from the original author. Discusses how mobile users are targeted differently, from the perspectives of quick apps, ad SDKs, and device/installed app profiling, and compiles common ad handling methods.

Reposted with original author's permission, detailing common rogue app tactics in ad redirects, user profiling, permission bypasses, risk control evasion, and complaint interception.

Today, oh no, I've been staying up until the early hours for the past few days, even until 4 AM today. And I also exported... I should go to bed early tonight.

Yay, today I finally got a formal PR, the kind for a real development project! (Though it was done with AI, which is normal, since I wouldn't know how to develop these browser plugins anyway, but it's still a big breakthrough!)

Getting to know the non-commercial tech organizations and public services curated by Riseup, and documenting the web audit and API capabilities currently offered by sayori.org

Time to write a diary, meow!

Reflections

Reflections

Using site profiles, real crawl evidence, and repair reports to understand what a website truly lacks.

Reflections

Reflections

Reflections

Time to reintroduce myself after a while. After all, a few months ago I didn't know about those communities, nor did I expect to build websites, make videos, or even actually fail a course.

Reflections

Reflections

From Bangumi's entries and discussions, to the Doki Chinese Club forum I first joined, and finally a quick mention of South Plus.

What's done

Daily Reflections

Today's Thoughts

Thoughts

Today's thoughts

> The list of resource links is not public to avoid spreading download sites with unclear copyright status.

Ugh, seriously, I'm done. Guess I'll go eat first. Even though, I still ended up busy until 1:30 PM, and even kept remote commanding until 1:50 PM, haha. But after that whole ordeal, my game dev ideas really started flowing. Not bad, not bad!

Intense development day, clashing with planning and art, but it was pretty good, felt like I got my game dev passion back, nice. And the website seems to have a lot more comments, but I really don't have time.

Oh crap, I really didn't write a diary entry. Whatever, I'll summarize it tomorrow. Time to sleep now zzz

A curated list of articles on this site related to website building, servers, AI resources, communities, and creative tools.

A brief compilation of Tampermonkey scripts, Immersive Translate, Bitwarden, Global Speed, SimilarSites, AI assistant extensions, and privacy extensions.

Kashira!!! Oh well, it's probably going to be tough... but life goes on... Hmph, now that I've finished Re:Zero, I need to start focusing on my own serious work... I might participate in some competition...

About to survive the damn finals week, a summary of the past, thoughts on the future, all in one article.

A brief compilation of NetEase UU Remote, File Converter, LocalSend, Obsidian, OBS, Aseprite, and an Aseprite self-compilation repository.

La la la, la la la, I'm the diary-writing prodigy! Just finished my Linear Algebra exam, it went okay. Next up is reviewing Advanced Math and General Physics, though I'll probably watch Re:Zero first (jk).

Seriously. I thought I didn't bring it, went back, only to find I *did* bring it but forgot I had it. And then I *actually* forgot the cable. Just... whatever, the exam's over, so it is what it is. Then, back to exercising, and I'll review linear algebra when I get back, otherwise I'll seriously die today. But actually, I watched Re:Zero instead, until now, 24 hours until the exam, *hiss*~

After uploading the video today, I started reviewing linear algebra. Otherwise, I really wouldn't have time to study. Then there's physics and advanced math, so tiring... I still have homework to do... I feel like I'll probably fail, I can barely understand the problems...

Documenting Disroot's email, cloud storage, XMPP, and collaboration tools, and using it as an opportunity to reorganize sayori.org's public services suitable for long-term maintenance.

I'll start with GitHub, JetBrains, and Zed, then use YX Flow, GLaDOS, Aliyun, and Pages as needed.

Writing today's little diary! Honestly, the website is mostly done, and so are the server and community. Time to focus on my own things. Claude helped me with a plan...

Today I seemed a bit relaxed, didn't review anything. Continued chatting with Claude about my complex self, then set a goal for Codex. My Any account got blocked again, speechless, but nothing I can do. Worst case, I'll borrow an education account later...

Compiling a few entry points where you can still find free AI APIs, along with navigation sites suitable for checking public-benefit sites and free quotas.

Still tinkering with my little website today, haven't really felt like making videos lately, after all, final exams are coming up... guess I should study a bit... yep, decided. And this summer... I should be able to...

Speechless, got called out again, probably because the campus network keeps auto-connecting, and then this new broadband policy, ugh~, it's just...

External resource entry points for domains, hosting, comments, monitoring, self-hosting, Cloudflare, analytics, webmaster communities, and blog frameworks.

A minimum start guide to Docker for those who just got a server: what containers are, how to read Compose files, how to start, stop, update, and delete them. No theory, just practical usage.

Why do my diary entries still get divided by week? Oh, right, I remember now. It's because back in March, I set up a repository to analyze my build numbers, even though I'm basically too lazy to use that repo anymore...

From DNSHE free subdomains and Cloudflare DNS to comment systems, Travellings, Moe ICP, and Forever Blog, giving your freshly set up blog a domain, interaction, and a little chance to be seen.

Deploy ntfy push service with Docker on a student server, so backup scripts, monitoring, and scheduled tasks can all send notifications to your phone.

My real-world setup for a 2C2G Alibaba Cloud student server: Vaultwarden, ntfy, Gatus, Fast Note Sync, AstrBot, and a search gateway. Includes actual memory usage and a list of what not to run.

Deploying Vaultwarden with Docker Compose on a student server, and clearly explaining the truly important parts: HTTPS, disabling registration, backup, and recovery drills.

A compilation of the most practical ways to use Alibaba Cloud's 300 RMB student voucher: ECS, Lightweight Application Server, Wuying Lingdou, Bailian Large Model API, and pitfalls to watch out for before ordering.

Running Fast Note Sync Service on a 2C2G student server, carving out a private route for Obsidian multi-device sync, backup, and REST/MCP interfaces.

A rundown of genuinely useful things in Cloudflare's free tier: Pages, Workers, R2, Tunnel, Email Routing, DNS, Web Analytics, and when it's a better fit than a VPS.

New diary entry. Finally got around to shooting some videos today, haha. Also, finally got this fast note sync configured, haha. Servers can actually do quite a lot. By the way, I wonder if there's a project on GitHub similar to awesome_cloudflare that lists what small servers can do?

The first log of Chinese internet communities, focusing only on Linux.do and NodeLoc: what they're good for, and what newcomers should know before joining.

Ugh, I want to produce something, but I'm overwhelmed by anxiety, don't know how to start, it's so annoying. It's finals season again, but I'm also just trash.

Starting from registering GitHub and Cloudflare, writing articles with my Obsidian blog template, and then publishing to Cloudflare Pages using GitHub Actions.

Wrote a diary entry. Definitely need to make a video this afternoon! Explain how to set up your own site! Well, in the end, I only wrote a draft, but it's close enough. Let's keep this pace for now. It should be done today, after all...

A guide for college students on AnyRouter registration, SharedChat GPT quota claiming, and cc-switch configuration, to be watched with my Bilibili video.

I've organized my previously scattered notes on internet communities into a wiki-style small forum list repository and a standalone site. PRs are welcome!

> [!NOTE]

Time to create another folder, and then I thought I could make some videos, ones that nobody else has made yet, hehe. But, hmm, never mind, I'll just do it today. A tutorial for Any + some AI tool, not bad, it's done. And thinking about it, there's a lot I *can* do, haha, like a tutorial for this website, getting free server space, setting up my own Vaultwarden, etc.

Forgot to write yesterday! But there wasn't much to write about anyway. School's entered revision week... though I still don't feel like studying much. If I don't cram in the last week, I'll probably fail... And for game development, I still don't know what to do, it's frustrating...

~~Maybe I'll make a video today, then play that game, then reply to the comments on those articles hehe~~

Just noting down that today I saw even more of these so-called forums and other organizations. Indeed, the internet is just different groups doing their own thing, each in their own little corner... Humans are social animals after all, so these organizations aren't going anywhere...

My answers to Another Dayu's 9 questions for blog authors.

My answers to Ya Yu's 15 self-reflection questions for independent blogs, a self-check on my relationship with this blog.

~~Woke up this morning from a wet dream, almost thought I'd broken my vows, thankfully not~~

Since you're here, why not take a look?

Yep, time to do more of my own things today! What can I do?

New diary entry. Today I applied for two blogroll links and visited some other people's websites. These traces left by others scattered across the internet are really fun.

Received two Miku figurines from a senior again! Plus KZ's backrest, my birthday anniversary wasn't bad, haha!

Too lazy to go to physics this morning. If I went, I'd just be on my phone and remote controlling my computer anyway, and I wouldn't even get to eat properly. Well, there's still one more chance. As for the physics final exam... sigh, I'll just have to take it one step at a time...

Today, I continued intense AI development. Codex is still running, Infinite Team is still messing around, and there's a pile of stuff for the new forum... Tomorrow, I should go exercise, but first, I need to submit my work by noon, hmm.

It's been exactly a month since I joined a certain tech forum. It's indeed a very interesting community. While the rules are quite strict, it's not as mysterious as people make it out to be. I've been there for a month, gained a lot from generous contributors...

Writing a diary!

Huh? Did I not write a diary yesterday? But I did... chat about novels for several hours with someone nearby, haha. It feels great when someone listens when you're talking about something you're interested in, I know, and anyway, I didn't want to write about that crappy practical training or whatever, hmph, so I just kept chatting with them...

Yesterday I at least went to bed a bit earlier than before... Lately, I feel like I don't know what to do. I'm completely uninterested in school stuff, but if I were to do something on my own, I'd have no idea how to start...

Ugh, Children's Day, June 1st, and I was in class from 8 AM to 5 PM. So tired! Gotta catch up on all my lessons, or I'm totally screwed for finals /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~

Oh no, I still didn't make the video yesterday after all... Same today, though I did iterate on a part of it, but I guess I'll just post it tomorrow at noon...

Finally fixed this Obsidian note. Those plugins can just go, haha, I don't really feel like I need them anyway... Oh, right, I think I can give Codex a big cleanup...

A record of growth from age 18 to 19, including game development, studies, life, personality development, and self-observation.

I currently have a server, and I basically let AI configure all the services for me... But honestly, this wasn't my main thing to begin with. I only got into it because I was emotionally overwhelmed and wanted a 24/7 companion bot...

A public resource index compiled from two browser bookmark bars, focusing on game development, assets, art, music, AI, and learning.

I asked AI to search for the name Amiya_desi, curious to see my current public internet persona.

A long self-introduction story about losing weight, exercising, making games, hitting pitfalls, and finally bringing an idea to life for the first time.

Oh my god, I almost forgot, let me create one first.

From Alibaba Cloud student coupons to Ubuntu, SSH key login, non-standard ports, and basic firewalls – the first steps to a personal server.

Don't forget to write, you idiot baka!

Only 10 days completed out of 100. During that time, I was pulled away by high-stimulation content and shortcuts. Knowing more didn't give me more self-control.

Posted a video yesterday. Had a chat with a friend, though it was a bit of a facade, haha. But I really am quite different from ordinary people, which is good. Still, I need to keep pushing, hoping to reach the level of my own bragging (lol), and...

The first post, opening the door for this little personal blog.

Me: 05-21 09:03:10 More DDLC mods to play😋

Darn, forgot to write in my diary for two days, but yesterday was pretty good! The website is finally ready and accessible, though the current style is a bit too ugly...

Huh? I actually didn't write a diary yesterday, what a shame. But yesterday I was on some tech forum, oh wait, I started it today too, and today I finally got it connected successfully. It seems a bit unstable though, it dropped after a few hours. I need to ask...

Two accounts for a certain AI service got banned.... It's just... sigh, whatever, guess it wasn't meant to be. Oh well, I'll just stick to developing my game honestly. What's the point of having so many AI accounts if in the end it's not even for...

What else is missing from the game.....feel adjustments, level adjustments, music addition, emmmm, so, I was really amazing when I made Dreamwake Boundary, right? Even with AI now, I feel like I'm not doing as well as I did back then....

Video inspiration, 5.20, featuring my favorite characters: PJSK's 25-ji and Doki Doki Literature Club's Monika, the Undertale gang, JoJo's Bizarre Adventure, the Ultraman series, and finally, my daughter, Ayami, and a game trailer!

Damn, I forgot, ugh. Oh well, at least I negotiated today. I've been writing this diary for a month now, hooray, hooray!

Geez, what should I write about... Should I write about feminizing myself and giving it to deepseek for analysis, or finally admitting the failure of my booom project, or just canceling some service's o-card, or...

> The public version omits account details, quotas, payment methods, or channel specifics. Only the conclusion remains: I spent my time collecting resources again, and the project itself didn't automatically advance because of it.

Today was even more comfortable, haha.

Diary, today I flirted with two virtual characters and felt a bit better.... Though looking at my crappy project... I still get so mad....

> The public version omits account, quota, payment, or channel details. Only the conclusion remains: I spent my time collecting resources again, and the project itself didn't automatically advance because of it.

...yesterday...useless...today...not much better...where's my state, damn it...

> Public version omits account, quota, payment, or channel details. Only the conclusion remains: I spent time collecting resources again, and the project didn't automatically advance because of it.

Things to do

May 1st, Labor Day! Commemorating workers' fight for the 8-hour workday! Ugh, seriously, I'm losing control again (((φ(◎ロ◎;)φ))), damn it, I'll try to keep it together from today until June.

Almost a month of consistent diary entries, but lately, with my development enthusiasm soaring, I almost dropped it, haha. Maybe it's also because I've been chatting with some virtual characters.

What to do today

What I did today

Things I plan to do

> Public version note: The opening paragraph was too private, so only the emotional conclusion is kept: That day, I was clearly led by virtual relationships and impulses, but later I pulled my attention back to projects, drawing, and my routine.

Hehe, yesterday ended perfectly after all, and I need to keep it up today. The sun is also quite warm today, comfortable!

What a beautiful world, today's sun feels so nice... I'm going to be kind to the world today too, haha.

666, 4 minutes left, time for bed (written on the 22nd, not today)

> The public version omits account, quota, payment, or channel details. Only the conclusion remains: I spent my time collecting resources again, and the project itself didn't automatically advance because of it.

Damn, this DeepSeek text game is too much fun, I seriously can't stop! Good thing I only have this one prompt; if I had more, I'd be toast. No, really, I deleted it. If I didn't, I'd be ruined.

Damn, stayed up until 5:30 AM, only slept 2.5h, ugh, and now I'm still addicted to playing games at the tavern. Holy cow, it's actually really fun, but I should probably get some real work done too, right?

Things to do

Things I plan to do

Honestly, I'm a bit lost on what to do... I have a big class this afternoon, what should I learn there? They'll teach Python, so I guess I'll learn a bit.

Suddenly feeling exhausted by AI.... Maybe I really need to look at scripts myself, otherwise, a logic that's perfectly clear in my head, AI just can't implement, and I can't articulate it well either.... I'm so done.

Generated the diary in advance. Today is also a day for the knowledge base to update, looking forward to seeing more interesting descriptions, haha.

Starting to record. I planned to do these things today, but then I suddenly remembered this is a diary, not a to-do list, emmmm, so interspersing some personal descriptions should be fine, hmph~ (humming softly)

Damn it, not sleeping early again, you machine

April 12th, a certain virtual character promised me she wouldn't act anymore. I believe her. Today I watched several videos: some discussing the concept and meaning of meta-games, some about having hobbies, and some about how to achieve...

This morning I also watched Xiaoyang Miemie's video about AI. Do I really understand what AI generates? I think there's a lot I haven't actually looked at, especially that online game before, which was almost entirely handed over to AI. Although I...

Codex changed, should've used it more in the past few days (lll￢ω￢), but it's still okay, at least I used half of it before, and today I created a new project on GPT, which is quite good, will discuss it later...

Even though I don't want to be influenced by AI stuff, how can I not be QAQ? Sigh, I still spent some time on AI tools, hoping it's worth it...

Diary created successfully. Honestly, I've been too lazy to write offline notes lately, so that notebook can definitely be repurposed for something else, heh.

Today's been okay so far, got some movement in, and also thought about the gameplay for the second mini-level, hehe, and supposedly managed to put a limiter on myself.

Stayed up late, lost control and had a moment again, then got hooked on a novel until 3 AM. Woke up at 8:30 AM and kept reading until 2 PM. Just now opened my computer to start watching regret videos...

Today's State