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I currently have a server, and I basically let AI configure all the services for me… But honestly, this wasn’t my main thing to begin with. I only got into it because I was emotionally overwhelmed and wanted a 24/7 companion bot… After it was set up, to avoid wasting it, I configured a bunch of other services, and now I can’t live without them… My main goal, I hope, is still to make games, improve my design skills, art skills, music skills, coding skills, AI mastery, and so on? Looking at it that way, I should be learning drawing, composing, and watching design videos… But I feel like there’s not enough time… And then I also need to make videos, promote and manage my online presence, be active on tech forums, get resources from forums, and so on… And then there are school assignments, which are probably the lowest priority for me, haha.

I want to… make my games more fun… But I feel like AI is still too lacking in this kind of design ability… As for music and art, many people indeed suggest I don’t need to self-learn, but how should I put it, I’m just the type who wants to learn everything. Ever since I had my ‘awakening,’ I feel like learning is really fun. Learning more skills can both show off and enrich myself. Although I feel I might be a bit scared when it comes to art and music, after all, I’d rather tinker with servers and websites right now. Even though these are new things for me to learn, they can also serve my games, like making game official websites and such. Tinkering with video making, managing my online presence, all for promoting my games and expanding income channels, etc. Tinkering with communities and AI is also to get better tools and richer resources, to meet more experts – this can be considered a kind of interpersonal resource. And I’ll use these to assist my learning or creation, and so on… So I have a lot to do and a lot to learn… Sometimes I also feel very tired, wasting time being out of control or watching videos. Then after a while of idleness, rationality kicks in, and I continue learning. That’s how I’ve stumbled along until now. Compared to myself a year ago, I have undoubtedly grown a lot… Although I don’t know if this kind of growth is fast enough. Let me tell you, maybe it’s because I ‘woke up’ too late, which makes my desire to learn even stronger. Compared to those who started learning from a young age, I’m already too far behind…

Summaries emerging from conversations with Claude. Actually, I have quite a lot of daily self-summaries and output, but I always forget to record them, scattered across various platforms or AI chat logs… Sigh~, I finally understand why AI records need to be exportable. Otherwise, it’s really too hard to keep track of my data and output…

Ugh, I still didn’t manage to go to bed early today, went to sleep at 11 PM… It’s already early morning the next day, I might as well just go to bed… Don’t even know what I was busy with all day… Feels like I just browsed forums, tinkered with AI, and that was it… And what did I tinker with AI for? Just spruced up the website a bit… adjusted the server a bit… and that’s about it.